Right. Here are my New Years' Resolutions of 2012:
+ Draw more. A LOT more.
It used to make me incredibly happy and it's an old friend I've fallen out of touch with. I plan to do this by starting not only a new art journal, but also an Illustration Friday archive. I've already got both sketchbooks -- the journal is a salmon pink, hardback one I got ages ago from the Tate in London, and the IF archive is a small, fat, Kraft paper one I bought from Paperchase yesterday -- so there's no excuse! Except I do need to get myself a few good quality black and white pencils, but that shall be accomplished tomorrow on my day off.
+ Get way more involved with the Ourspace Appeal.
Nevermind whether or not I've gotten myself sorted first. I've figured out now that getting yourself to where you want to be is what life is all about, and if I sit around and wait for it before I take on anything else, it'll all just pass me by. This is my chance to really give back, for a really personal cause, and I need to grab it and get stuck in.
+ Work towards some kind of future for myself.
I've spent a really, really long time suspended between the fiery motivation to make something of myself and my life -- the second chance I was inexplicably blessed with -- and the practicalities and restrictions of reality. I need to somehow get one foot up on determination and the other up on opportunity, spread my wings to the best of my capability and kick off.
I don't usually make resolutions at New Year, because when I was younger it seemed like all anyone ever resolved to do were silly things like give up chocolate, which never actually happened, and it all seemed so pointless. Depriving yourself of something that makes you happy, as long as you bear important factors like health in mind, is hardly a worthy goal. It's not meant to earn you bragging rights, but to help you make changes you're really serious about. And of course, if you're that serious about something, what's the point in waiting until New Year to put it into action? If your resolution was to pay better attention to your houseplants and you put off making that change until New Year, your plants would all be dead by the time you got around to it.
I do think, however, that New Year tends to do a bit of an exposé on us. Whenever January 1st rolls around, we see something shiny and new with massive amounts of potential, and then we look at ourselves and go, Man, this ain't right.
So in light of recent events, and with an effervescent, roll-up-your-sleeves-and-get-dirty mindset, here I go.